HUSBAND IS BACK

He has actually been back for about a week now but until today we had honeymoon. Today his regular P/A stuff reared it's ugly head.
It happens like a little storm. He gets more and more 'pushed' (I think that how he feels) and eventually he explodes. That includes blaming me for not loving him, doing everything my way, and for me, and nothing for him, and getting into a self pity mood. I told him he was being disrespectful which usually produces no response whatsoever. (why do I even hope for apology is beyond me)
I admit it bothers me when he sleeps from 11pm till 10 am and is so very bothered to get up. When he does wake up, he is basicly doing us all a favor and then we get to this outburst after I don't feel like scratching his back. Sorry!!!
The saddest part of it is I have no idea what to say or do to make this in any way constructive. How am I to be helpful or supportive after being yelled at?
Anyway, we are back to being married!!! woohooo!

HORMONES AND HOMELESSNESS.

Pregnancy hormones don't seem to help my mood. I am dying to move out of this trash can and have a clean place of our own. Or at least (if I don't clean it) to know that I am in my own dirt...
I am also fed up with work as I seem to feel worse when I work full days. Half days don't seem to really 'pay off'...
I think, people are clueless about therapy and effects of illness on the child/ life itself. There's the lady from MOPS and she was in a good old denial about the need of therapy for her kid. Her kid had a lung transplant and spent a half a year in hospital. Now she is spoiled and woman is just going ahead with life 'as if nothing happened'. 'Good luck' is my only recomendation. But after all the kid may not live too long, so they may not even get to the real problems ever... One mom suggested that it might be 'just a phase'. Again, no comment. It just shows how people are totally ignorant.
We went to birhtday party and I guess, I am really hitting the brick wall in regards to my husband. Realization that we are so entirely broke and likely not going to steadily improve is somewhat killing me. Birthday party was lovely. Many people, some grandparents, friends etc. Benefit of living in one place for ever.
So, bad morning, esp. when it starts at 4:45. Hate those.