Some things going on.
I decided that I don't want to have any kind of commitment with Michael other then dating.
I talked to Duckie about Rich and told her that IMO he's RAD. We agreed on manipulation 100%. I am sorry that I didn't see it earlier. But I hardly ever talked to him before now. Amuzing is that Rich finds me dangerous... (It is not our abilities that define us but our choices; is the only thing I can say)
Duckie's counselling is helpful. Hillarious counseller told her about "semiretired hooker". That was a definite funny story.
I realised that friends are in your life to help you figure things out (as in my opinion life is something to be figured out - and I find that aspect absolutely great about life and a reason to love it).
A very interesting question surfaced: "why am I dating Michael?". I am unable to answer it. I am pretty sure that it was a deliberate decision on my part. I can't explain it. I definitely enjoy dating him. Which is also somewhat amazing.

I called my mom. She is lovable. I told her that I went to visit a synagog. She said: "Well, you did a very good thing". She thinks that I am expanding my horizons, I bet. Boy, that's gonna be something else to break it to her that I am seriously considering it as a way of life. Well, her second chance to accept my religious choices...
Even if I did go jewish; I am pretty sure I don't want to convert Baby to judaism. First, he would remember circumsicion I believe. And even thought we wanted to have him circumsiced at birth; it didn't happen. Second, he moved in my belly first time when we went to see "Passion of the Christ"; Big reason for me to see it as a "sign". And third, he can decide when he grows up.
Even though, I would try to expose him to the jewish everything incl. school. But, schools are expensive and the most likely scnario is that he'll end up in a local public school. Sight.
SN falks have lot's of problems... I think about them a lot.